Best Gift EVER
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During the cultural revolution in China, most of the photos, journals, heirlooms, and other relics that belonged to my family were either thrown away, burned or buried somewhere forgotten, for fear of being caught with these items by the Red Guards or other telling eyes. During this period, whole histories were vanished overnight, replaced by the ideology that we must start from a New Beginning, to improve the new China. This was called the Great Leap Forward. Good job Mao.
I never had it in me to dig in the past. I've been pounded by the mantra, "never look back." Sure, I love books. History too. But my parents were never big on letting us in on their history, let alone show us photos they probably don't remember having from an era they long forgot. (Useless sidenote: It took my dad twenty eight years just to reveal to me that, back in his days in Guangzhou, he was a baller. My response: Um, ok dad. Thanks for the memo.)
Last night my dear sister sent me this photograph of my dad's family from the 1960's. It made me feel like a little boy in a dream I had... He stands with his large family in a busy restaurant... he seems happy, content. He's holding something in his hands carefully, as if not to be too rough with its contents. He walks up to his parents, and shows them what he's been holding. His face beaming of a combination of pride and a careless embarassment, he opens his hands and says, "Look! I've got the whole world in my hands!" He was holding a pencil.
That's the dorky pride I feel right now, sniff sniff. Thanks Lisa for making this the best gift ever, Stephen for making me a proud sibling, and I thank someone somewhere for allowing me such a great pack of kinfolk to be so proud of.
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